I swear I’m the strangest person I know. Just how do you like a
guy for no reason? I’ve liked him for so long that I can’t believe it. But
thank god for what happened today. I talked to him after school, just a small
chat... It was kind of unpleasant. Or rather, he was unpleasant. He’s kind of a
jerk and now I know why it’s so hard for me to talk to him. I’m starting to understand that he’s not the one
who will make me happy. But I still want
to try to see if that’s true. My mind won’t agree with itself. I can understand
that I shouldn’t want to like or see him anymore. I understand that the only
one he will like is her. But I still want to see and talk to him. I don’t know.
Maybe next semester when I have a class with him, we’ll see… But maybe it’ll
turn out to be even more unpleasant. I’m afraid of the truth. Is he who I thought
he was? Maybe there’s a reason most people don’t like him… I don’t know. We'll see in the future if he's worth the effort of liking.
I'm scared of what might happen later though. But that's life. Or maybe, the adolescence of life. Growing up is really a pain in the butt. Especially when you let something like a guy rule your life. That's not the way to live, obviously. Breaking away from thinking about him will take time. Be strong, me.
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